deadxxdawn
About
Age: 35
Sex: Male
Sexuality: Curious
Relationship: Single
Occupation: currently without a paying job
Location: Manchester, CT. USA
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Friends
3
Crushes
1
My Biography
and i know, i may end up failing too..

*rubs chin* what the fuck should i say ?

things i like: music, writing, kitties, singing/screaming *shrugs*, friends, reading, driving, walking, food, juice, soda, candy, fun people, fuzzy animals, amusing people, moshing, murdering stupid people in my dreams, grilled cheese.

things i dont like: ignorance, people who dont listen, stupid people, shitty musicians getting record deals and radio play, bad music, homophobes, rapists, people who fuck with my friends, people who cheat on other people, people who put others down for no reason, whores (sluts too i suppose), players, cold and damp weather, really hot and humid weather, punks (not the musically classified "punk", but the people who talk shit all the time) & green peppers.

music: ♥stabbing westward♥, ♥nine inch nails♥, ♥otep♥, ♥filter♥, coal chamber, tool, ♥lacuna coil♥, ♥spineshank♥, ♥cradle of filth♥, ♥graveworm♥, dimmu borgir, apocalyptica, fear factory, sr-71, deftones, korn, ♥cold♥, seether, dope, union underground, black sabbath, ♥avril lavigne (hush! lol)♥, old mans child, in flames, dmx, soulmotor, deadsy, ♥orgy♥, fuel, cryptopsy, marilyn manson, jack off jill, my ruin, kittie, creed, the cure, killswitch engage, twisted method, insane clown posse, foo fighters, nirvana, alanis morisette, fiona apple, zeromancer, arch enemy, nevermore, queens of the stone age, payable on death, papa roach, linkin park, ♥the dreaming♥, static-x, system of a down, metallica, sum 41, blink 182, crazytown, ♥hed p.e.♥, devildriver, mudvayne, eminem, msi, ♥limp bizkit♥, left rights, silverchair, soundgarden, audioslave, hatebreed, six feet under, death, radiohead, strapping young lad & many more.


stabbing westward :: acf

you are all i am, you are all i ever want to be
i think of you
a solitary cry echoes through my throat and through my mind
i think of you

i think i woke up screaming
i had a dream that you still loved me
i think i woke up screaming
i think i woke up screaming again

for hours i'll just stare at my ceiling at nothing at all
and think of you
the candlelight through bells make shadows just like roses in my mind
and I think of you

i think i woke up screaming
i had a dream that you still loved me
i think i woke up screaming
i think i woke up screaming again

could this last forever?
or will i die?
could this last forever?
or will i die?
just can i die?

maybe i could try to take a bath and drink a little wine
and think of you
but probably i'll lie naked on the floor by candlelight
and i'll think of you

i think i woke up screaming
i had a dream that you still loved me
i think i woke up screaming
i think i woke up screaming again

i think i woke up screaming
i had a dream that you still loved me
i think i woke up screaming
i think i woke up screaming again

i think i woke up
i think i woke up
i think i woke up
i think i woke up

i think i woke up
i think i woke up
i think i woke up
screaming again


the cure :: burn

don't look, don't look
the shadows breathe
whispering me away from you
don't wake at night to watch her sleep
you know that you will always see
this trembling, adored, toussled bird-mad girl

every night i burn
every night i call your name
every night i burn
every night i fall again

don't talk of love 'cause shadows blur
murmuring me away from you
don't talk of worlds that never were
the end is always ever true
there's nothing you can ever say
nothing you can ever do

still every night i burn
every night i scream your name
every night i burn
every night the dream's the same
every night i burn
waiting for my only friend
every night i burn
waiting for the world to end

just paint your face and shadow smile
slipping me away from you
oh it doesn't matter how you hide
find you if we're wanting to
so slide back down and close your eyes
sleep awhile - you must be tired

when every night i burn
every night i call your name
every night i burn
every night i fall again

every night i burn
scream the animal screams
every night i burn
dream the crow black dream

dream the crow black dream

still every night i burn, every night i scream your name
every night i burn, every night the dream's the same

every night i burn, screaming the animal scream
every night i burn, dreaming the crow-black dream. yeah, yeah
dreaming the crow-black dream...


tool :: aenima

some say the end is near
some say we'll see armageddon soon
i certainly hope we will
i sure could use a vacation from this
bull-shit three ring cirrrrcus siiiideshow of
freaks here in this, hopeless fucking, hole we call l.a.
the only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
any fucking time.
any fucking day.
learn to swim, i'll see you down in arizona bay.

fret for your figure and
fret for your latte and
fret for your lawsuit and
fret for your hairpiece and
fret for your prozac and
fret for your pilot and
fret for your contract and
fret for your car.

it's a bull-shit three ring cirrrrcus siiiideshow of
freaks here in this, hopeless fucking, hole we call l.a.
the only way to fix it is to flush it all away.
any fucking time.
any fucking day.
learn to swim, i'll see you down in arizona bay.

some say a comet will fall from the sky.
followed by meteor showers and tidal waves.
followed by faultlines that cannot sit still.
followed by millions of dumbfounded dipshits.
some say the end is near.
some say we'll see armageddon soon.
i certainly hope we will
i sure could use a vacation from this
stupid shit, silly shit, stupid shit...
one great big festering neon distraction,
i've a suggestion to keep you all occupied.
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
mom's gonna fix it all soon.
mom's comin' round to put it back the way it ought to beeeeeeeee.

learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
fuck l. ron hubbard and fuck all his clones.
fuck all these gun-toting hip gangster wannabes.
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
fuck retro anything. fuck your tattoos.
fuck all you junkies and fuck your short memory.
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
fuck smiley glad-hands with hidden agendas
fuck these dysfunctional, insecure actresses
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
learn to swim
cuz i'm praying for rain
and i'm praying for tidal waves
i wanna see the ground give way
i wanna watch it all go down
mom please flush it all away
i wanna see it go right in and down
i wanna watch it go right in
watch you flush it all awaaaaaaaaay

time to bring it down again
don't just call me pessimist
try and read between the lines
i can't imagine why you wouldn't
welcome any change, my friend
i wanna see it come down
suck it down
suck it down
flush it down


"inside you" written by me

my blisters all shaded to the tint of your eyes
cant help but take a look, deep through your insides
find myself a small warm place where i can stay still
keep myself inside of you, no one but me

i wish i could stay here, forever
no one could ever drive me away
i only want to stay here, forever
give in to me just for to day

i find a way to slip myself inside of your dreams
nothings ever distorted, everythings as it should be
crystalized porcelain concaved through my frame
trying just to get myself out of this bed again

god, i wish that i could stay inside forever
none of your minions could drive me away
i only want to stay inside of you forever
please dont ever make me, make me turn grey


"forgotten" written by me

my skies all burn down to the ground
my feelings, ripped up, as i drown
its been so long ive suffered this
with my eternal wish to not exist

i hate everything that ive become

all my love was taken away
im so alone, thats how ill stay
no one here can help in changing this
or my eternal wish to not exist

i hate everything that ive become

all my scars still burn on me
and as they heal, my heart still bleeds
the pain of truth still poisons me
this is my unseen disease


"everything to gein" written by me

razors covered in your old blood
dancing around in my dead skin masks
watch your eyes as they fade to white
feel my hands slip inside you

cant seem to stop admiring your beauty
so cold, so frail, nailed to the wall
can you feel my flesh, touching your lips
can you feel my hand moving up your thigh

tortured and perfect, your beauty is a prison
heart has decayed where your soul now resides
soaking my fingers in your oceanside of blood
just watching and waiting, as time slips by

day after day, i come home to you, my love
filling up my freezerbox with jars of your disease
no, you cant leave, i could never leave you
wont you please just come inside and play


if you wanna talk to me, send me a message or IM me *shrugs*. im usually around
Friends

Crushes
Lords of Acid - Pretty In Kink