I am presently committed to drugs. We have an unsteady relationship with many ups and downs.. Basically, I am what I hate. I disguise myself in many ways. I am a desolate wonder with a few major interests...METAL- [Speed/Thrash/Grindcore] Writing, The Paradox, Occult, Aryans, Paganism, voracious reading, make-up, blood, mutilation, gothic attire, body modification, ~♥MurDeR♥~ maintaining my sense of awe and wonder in everything.
Velvet Acid Christ. Mentallo & The Fixer. Haujobb. XPQ-21. Hungry Lucy. Wumpscut. COF. Ildfrost. Lost Signal. Chu Ishikawa. Der Eisenrost. Lacuna Coil. Miranda Sex Garden. MDFMK. Clan Of Xymox. Plastic Noise Experience. Coil. Poison the Well. Buried Alive. Converge. Boys Night Out. Swift. Relative Ash. Stormtroopers of Death. KMFDM. Dashboard Confessional. Stabbing Westward. NIN. KORN. Deftones. In-Pieces. At the Drive-In. Taproot. Mindless Self Indulgence. Hopesfall. Zao. Undying. Zwan. Myriad. Sins of They Beloved. Factory 81. Painfetish. Manson. Placebo. Culture Club. Lords of Acid. Depeche Mode. In Flames. Sepultura. Pinhead Gunpowder. Gothic Sex. Anthrax. Machine Head. Propagandhi. Duct Tape Pussy. Connie Dungs. Coalesce. Earth Crisis. Operation. Cliff Clavin. The Devil Is Electric. You and I. It Takes All Kinds. COC. Shampoo. Fifteen. Hot Cross. Switchblade Symphony. Suzanne Vega. Nokturnal Mortum. Bauhaus. Walls of Jericho. Glassjaw. Drain S.T.H. Skinny Puppy. Testament. Motorhead. Type O Negative. Pro-Pain. Tear Garden. Bikini Kill. Sad Legend. Naked Aggression. Universal Stomp. The Sissies. Minor Threat. Skeleton Key. Apoptygma Berserk. Rosetta Stone. AFI. Tool. Fear Cult. Funker Vogt. Bella Morte. Snake River Conspiracy. Zeromancer. Slick Idiot. VNV Nation. Marcy Playground. Bile. Biohazard. Modest Mouse. Stahlhammer. N17. Front 242. LCD. Ministry. God Lives Underwater. Professional Murder Music. Coal Chamber. Electric Hellfire Club. Rorschach Test. Dive. Rammstein. Kittie. Otep. Tones on Tail. Kidney Theives. No Innocent Victim. Faraquet. Prodigy. Pitchshifter. A Perfect Circle. Skinless. Front Line Assembly. Sparta. Paradise Lost. Fields of the Nephilim. The Wake. In Ruins. Siouxsie and the Banshees. Replicator. The Church. Tiamat. Echo and Bunnymen. Gitane Demone. Tristania. Love and Rockets. Lies. Wire. Doors. Oathean. New Order. Kovenant. The Mission U.K. Gang Of Four. Darkseed. Joy Division. Killswitch Engage. Dimmu Borgir. Bella Morte. Mindflayer. Die My Darling. Bathory. Razorwire Halo. Darkthrone. Pantera. Tapeworm. My Dying Bride. Videodrone. Phish. Opeth. Dismember. Napalm Death. Mortician. Kreator. Blood Bath. Brujeria. Abscess. Skinlab. Six Feet Under. Suicide Commando. Summoning. Brand New. Bush. Kronos Quartet. DepSwa. Cruxshadows. Dredg. Ten Grand. Jillian. Shadowsfall. Dying Fetus. Fiona Apple. The Used. Glassjaw. Garbage. Joplin. Mahler. Max Resist. Primer 55. Sirena. Smashing Pumpkins. Toadies. Zug.
Suprisingly, there are more...
Ov Dark Blood & Fucking
From pleasure or pain
Or the razor´s edge in between
He knows tolerance. [Don?t forget]
She only knows loneliness. [Not you]
And, in my blackness of sleep, savages dance and scream.
But only truth is suffering.
Bleeding like embryos. [Only truth is suffering]
Starving with dreams [life, blood] of you.
And what happened to you last night?
Have you given up without a fight?
I learned the words they say recite.
You killed the flower that blossoms in the night.
Whores fuck to feel divine
"Take heed, dear heart, of this large privilege;
The hardest knife ill-used doth lose his edge."
Darkness consumes the body & comforts the core of nothing.
Fallen angels at my feet.
Whispering voices in my ear.
Death before my eyes,
lying next to me I fear.
LET US PREY!
Let not my love be call'd idolatry,
Nor my beloved as an idol show,
Since all alike my songs and praises be
To one, of one, still such, and ever so.